Inspiration.

2011 is coming to an end. It’s been one of the most confusing, painful, eye opening, enlightening, spiritual, heart breaking years to date.   The last few weeks have all been about reflection for me, reflection of the year, reflection of my life and where I’m at compared to where I want to be. In the end I’m right where God needs me to be. I know that, it’s just hard to recognize and acknowledge sometimes but it’s true.

I’ve been thinking about Adamo and I’s planned trip to New York City for my 30th birthday. It’s in April which almost seems like a lifetime away. It’s only 5 months away but still feels as so much can change in such a quick time frame. I can’t wait for the trip for the adventure and for the stories that I’ll be able to keep with me for the rest of my life.

That’s what I think I’ve been missing in my life, not the adventures but the writing about said adventures. Since Adamo and I got together my blog has suffered from it. I think I’ve pinpointed as to why my writing stopped, I lost my muse. My muse for so long was the city of Austin, the misadventures I had and tales of love gained and love lost and today(well for a quite sometime now) I have that love that I yearned for so long. I wonder why it’s taken me 5 years to realize that. Am I really that stubborn of a person that I can’t see something so beautiful right in front of me. Maybe it’s because I’m on some kind of spiritual high today but I feel inspired to write.

I’ve missed moments like this, moments where I’ve just let my thoughts run wild and see where my fingertips take me and see what comes out of my mind. I know that I need to write more. Hell in the last month I’ve written more on the blog, on my computer  and just in general that I have in the last 4 years. The tricky part is collecting the thoughts and ideas and putting them into one cohesive thing and then just go with it. I want to write a story, well maybe a book but let’s start small here and say a story first. I feel inspired Constant Reader. I’m ready for 2012 and whatever may come, I know that I can deal with it. Life has taught me many lessons and I’m still willing to learn.