This is a gift.

I had an amazing weekend. Created some amazing memories with my friends and just took in the gift that sobriety has given me.  Because of this disease that runs through my veins, I am given an extraordinary life. Don’t get me wrong it comes with it’s set of challanges but I’m given tools to deal with those challenges and the faith in something greater than me. Something that I never had before getting sober.

I love my friends. Many of whom I can’t mention on here but they are all so equally special to me. I learn from them daily and hopefully I’m able to leave a piece of myself with them. There’s something about getting a group of people in recovery together, where they are speaking the same language and aiming towards a common solution that brings peace to my heart.

I cried on a few occassions this weekend but they were tears of joy. Seeing how magical and in sync things are is amazing. What is more amazing is the ability to be present to watch these miracles occur. To remember it. To know what it feels like to be completely at peace, even if for a moment. For me, when things get rough I think of these moments and know that things will get better.

This is all such a gift and I’m blessed. And I know there is so much work to be done, on me and the damage I caused others but I’m ok with that. I’m ok these days-and that’s a damn good feeling.